sozaa

i don´t wanna lie to you, and i think i´ve had enough of everybody just trying to use and fool me all the time… I wanna give all of my trust to you, but i just can´t it´s like it Would be against my nature to trust someone so blindly..
And i don´t wanna cheat myself anymore, i wanna come out of the dreamworld that i live´d in, but only in my head…
i have to wake up to the reality and stop dreaming, and realize that my story is one of those that don´t get the happy ending.. is it really that wrong for me to dream bout better life? Yes it is cuz that means that i Belive that something great could happen to me…so now this is me stopping the dreaming bout better life bout better people.. this is me getting used to idea of my own little shitty world… And why did it took this long to realize this? I have all my life Know´n that the world around me ain´t so good, but i have had the faith and strength to Belive that there Would be something better for me if i just have the strength to have faith and Belive that good things happens to good people, but i guess i was wrong.. or maybe im just not that good person maybe i don´t deserve my happy ending maybe everything i´ve been trhough is jus right for me, maybe this is just the life that has been chosen to me…

Why i can`t be there where you are ? I hate this feeling when i`m missing you :(

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